Thinkin back in time. No pain, but gain. =)

hwaa, afta ol thngs happnd, my mind get mor opened up! =D
evrythg wil b okokokok!^^ evnthou somtimes wen i recalled, it'll b some hurt der,,
but its OK! IM OK! hehe..
guys out der! for dos who knws me o not,, eu guys knw wat? wen 25oct08 11pm, i celebrated my bdae at peak which shud b 24oct, but i got some stuffs to do, so i post poned it.
n "he" came to my party,, i dono dat i shud b happy or sad. but im quite happy, bcos my cousin surprise me der, n d band der sang a bdae song for me, my besties comin up one by one n gimme a kiss*[on chic k,, =p].. im so surprise n happy..
but he stay outside of d peak n don wana came in, n i dono why. finally he came in, but i knw dats my senior who persuaded him to came in. n we even talked oni twice fo d whole nyt wif a small matters.
at almost 1 in d midnyt, he's goin home. n he txtd me, i tot dat we wud b some chance mor to reconciled.
but too bad, d noon of d nxt day, he came to my house.. n make evrythg clear,,
lyk wat i wrote on d previous page. n we do as a couple for d last day.
but i told him, not to tell his cousin[gurl] about us, cos me n his cousin r in d same school n class. im afraid dat d rumors wud b spread widely asap. so jus let evrythg flow..
one dae, dey'll smell something fishy n find out by themselves.
n i asked him, wen wil he go bck to sg fo courses? den he said monday.
but on monday, wen i was at my recess time, i went to canteen n havin breakfast..
suddenly i saw a guy wif a casual attire appeared at our canteen!!! SHOCKING!! XO
my first reaction was cough! n almost vomit out my food infront of my frens, n runaway frm my seat,,
but some words came across my mind, why shud i avoid him? useless me!
so i pretend to buy a tissue frm a booths der at canteen n went back to my seat, stil i saw him der straight frm seat. but i tent to b ok. so i jus let it flow~ but stil d wounds, scars, hurts r here..
at class his cousin kip on askin me, wat hppnd to me n him, i rili dono wat to do, somehow i wished dat im jus awake frm my dream.
n kip on tellin my self we were off!! stop thinkin! stupid! damn! dumb! ukkh..
but i realized ders no turning back n u turn der.
so i'll take him as FREN rili, n hide evrythg at inside, n blogging to relief.
rili dono wat i supposed to do nw,, but i knw IT'LL ALL BETTA IN TIME! =) may god bless me.