ppl says dat 17th as sweet 17th, same as wat i expected to hvin my "sweet" 17th. but outta my expectation, all of dis hs bcame a nitemare fo me. i clbrate it thru my tears fo d whole day.
1st is my mum told me to hv a nc talk wif my dad, so dat our relationship cud back to b4, n i share so many thngs dat i've been hide fo dis fw yrs to my mum, n finally we r now bcame mor wisely to each otha. [so touched! =D]
2nd is, ive been 2weeks didnt contct wif my bf. probs starts frm here, on oct 13th he txtd me about 12++ midnite, n he told me dat he gona sleep nw n etc. at dat time i was in peak to clubbin, so wen i read d message d first thng came into my mind was ignore dat message, because i thnk ders no use fo me to rply since he gona sleep directly. n den for d nxt day he didnt luk fo me animor, n i dono wat hppnd to hm, i try to txt hm, but he treat me like a cold blooded person, so i get off of it. till d day which is my bdae, he surprise me, he came back here to btm frm sg, he brought me my fav banana's cake, a pair of sandal dat he eva told me he saw a quite nc sandal n wana buy fo me but dono wats my size, n he did. he bought it for me. but wen i saw him, i dono wat my feel is, shud i b happy? or sad? coz i feel somthing wrong btwn us, he's not nimor d guy dat wud b my old fashion apeQk, he bcame a stranger dat i dono hw to face hm. til nxt dae, i founded d answer, d worst thng eva he told me dat he don love me like yesterday..... oni a day past frm my bdae, he told me dat. n oni fo 2 weeks we didnt contct, d distance frm d last time he told me dat he's stil lovin me not evn a month yet. d first thng came to my mind was, probably our a year n 28 days relationship cant evn afford 2 weeks exam. n i realize hw weak our relationship is. but i knw, im d one to blame, i failed to convince her mum, n im d type of perfunctory person, ders sum1 else in my heart n he knw dat, i dono him well, i dono dat he rili mind wen i ignore him n didnt luk fo him. quite confusin, shud i loose my hand? or fight fo it because he told me dat he stil adore me? but infact i feel he's guilty rather den sayin he stil adore me. i asked him, if he wana break up or not? but he didnt reply me... so our status nw its been hang up n ill defined. i cried fo my whole 17th i hate dat i hd destroyed on his hand but den he jus told me dat he's bad! , but thnk it ova n ova again, i thnk ders no more use fo me to drop tears, evn thou i cry til running out of tears, thngs wont back to d day we kip on laught, teasin each otha, tickle each otha, trick each otha, hug wif warms, spend times wif no bored, worry fo each otha. try to move on, n life must goes on, nthg can b force, especially "love".
im here to bless eu, hving a great life, cant b couple, stil can b fren. XD wish dat eur life at sg, aussie wud b smoothly n don smoke too mch, bad fo eur health huh! [ud btuk molo!], n eeQ ny yg lncar2x y.. kwkwk, last but not least don b guilty!! jgn mrsa brslh! ok? =)
some messages fo eu, eu jus nid to follow dese steps, den don nid to feel guilty nimor k? XD
"don b too gud i wil miss eu
don b too carin i might like eu
don b to sweet i might fall for eu
its hard for me to love eu when eu wont love me after all"
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